Friday 14 February 2014

Find yourself!

'Mom, I want to become rich, famous and I wish to have enough money that I could do anything I want to.' This is the most common line every parent would have heard, even I thought of the same but that was childhood, when a 100 Rs note was more satisfying than anything else. However, the adulthood hit us hard, hard enough to crack our outer layer, opening our inside, enabling us to see harsh, ruthless, vicious world which is known to us as LIFE!

I never realized when my dream of becoming a Pilot was modified so badly that I landed up in an engineering college along with thousands of others who had the same dream in their early years. I never realized I would be so frightened to face the world on my own, it was just like yesterday standing behind my parents as they fought to make way for me. I never realized when the time changed and I have to wash my clothes, manage the monthly budget and spend scrupulously, it was like yesterday when I was at home and sneaked 5 Rs from my mother's purse to get a chocolate.

Being in hostel, being independent has taught me a lot. But wait, where does the money come from? Yes, parents yet, independent yet? No, no way. I haven't started my life yet, I haven't started earning yet.
I would say if anyone wouldn't have seen any mental hospital then visit any engineering college and talk to the 3rd and 4th years students and just ask them, 'Placements, GATE, GRE, CAT, GMAT, UPSC or anything else?'

Being in 6th semester and seeing Placement companies and Higher studies' competition exams around the corner, trembles me. It's like passing through a graveyard at midnight, no matter you believe there are no ghosts, no dead corpse would rise up from their grave but the people around you would make you believe of their existence. You might and would pass through successfully but the tormented condition you might have to face would be unbearable.

Every person going through the same phase has many options but each one is going through a dark tunnel, you don't know what is on the other side but you have to believe and trust in yourself. That's the only source of light which will pass you through. Although the main adversity arises when a person doesn't know which tunnel to pass through, and that creates chaos and havoc in their mind which turns into over-thinking, stress, mood swings and importantly fracas with friends.

I recall a line from the movie, 'Pursuit of Happyness' when Will Smith tells his son, I would rather copy paste it.
''Hey. Don't ever let somebody tell you... You can't do something. Not even me. All right?
You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin', go get it.''

Now, that's the reality. People try to discourage you in every possible way if you step on something else, something unusual, not the traditional way, not because they despise you but they are too fearful of taking risk that they would rather be in the conventional path than on the other. Well, that's the safest mode and the best one, I agree but this is the time when you have to decide yourself, what do you want to do? A sadist profession or a happy ambition.

If you wish to go to foreign, don't have another thought, prepare for it but have a contingency plan to execute. There is not much time left when your parents will be in hope to get your services and if you are still in dilemma what do you want to do and what do you want to be, then gear up fast because the high tides are coming very fast, either protect yourself or be engulfed, either find yourself now or cry at yourself later!